C'mon Sweet Catastrophe

1. 16
   Aug
   

   Today

   this morning I woke up and drove to the doctors office to get a mole removed in a biopsy for skin cancer.  My mom had it, putting me at high risk.  I live a healthy life…but it’s not been the happiest one.

   My chance of skin cancer is low…given I’ve known how my skin and the sun react since I was a child, I’ve generally kept inside and out of sunlight too much.  I do get burned easily, and knowing this, if I go outside, I wear sun screen (now my moisturizer has spf15.  Not much, but for limited exposure it’s ok.) And I’m taking more vigilance. 

   I look at myself and know that if I could have a little bit of a tan, I would look slimmer.  My legs would look better…

   but now I have 3 stitches that make it a little clearer…this is the only chance I’ve got.  And this is the only chance I’ll have.

   So I’ll be pale…but now I’m gonna be happier.  Make informed decisions and be a little impulsive.  I’m gonna stop living for other people and start living for myself…because other people didn’t have to drive and get a mole tested for cancer at 19.  Oh it’s minor…you might judge me and say there are 5 year old children getting Neruoblastomas…why am I fretting about a 8mm mole?  why does it even matter?

   It’s unfortunate that children are dying of this disease…and I understand that it’s just skin cancer and not anything more traumatic…but it’s still life changing, regardless of prognosis.

   Take care of yourself.  Add a little vanilla to your milk and drink it up.  Take a multivitamin because surely you’ll need it, and make sure to not pick your scabs.  Dogs lower your blood pressure, while kids just raise it so you might as well have a few, and a little hair in your food never hurt anyone.  Be kinder to people and it’s never uncool to hold open a door.  Say please, thank you, and your prayers.  Mom wasn’t always right and you weren’t always wrong, so it’s ok to have Ice Cream for dinner once in a while.  And follow your bliss and live your own life, because some day, the prognosis might not be as good.

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